Time, Time, Time

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I want to teach my child to: Laugh at him/herself
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Let's see...what's new on the baby front? Not a whole lot. I feel like the days are just ticking away right now until we really have no excuse for not getting pregnant. I'm getting increasingly nervous though. The closer we get the more I feel we're not ready to get pregnant in early November and that later November would be better. But really, why am I so convinced that I have any control over how fast we get pregnant after throwing the prevention out the window? It could happen on cycle one. It could happen on cycle 12. There's always a possibility it may never happen.

I've always been ultra-careful not to get pregnant. And I think most women assume that they could get pregnant at the slightest mistake. I can imagine what a shock it must be to start trying to conceive and not get pregnant right away. It goes against everything we've been taught to fear, as in the penis being a deadly weapon of sorts. It only takes one bullet to change your life forever. And you never know, that bullet may have wrangled his way out of the condom and found its way to your uterus despite all your efforts otherwise. So I guess fate has its own role in all of this and there's only so much you can control. Nick and I have had to plan this child #1 more than we want, but if it works, it will have been a smart move.